Our office was deprived of its Internet connection for about 24 hours, so we were all in mourning. Not much to do without it! Today we finally solved the problem! Which was…our ex IT manager did his job so well that he didn’t tell us the contract expired. He kept saying it was paid in advance for one year until September. Well, guess what, it was only until June! Anyway…
Other than that I’ve been contacted several companies, letting them know I’m leaving so I won’t be the contact person anymore. Moreover, I’ve been cleaning my desk, reviewing all my files, projects, documents, offers…It hurts, really! Each little paper has a story of its own. Cristina’s not being here anymore helped my melancholic state, so…
I don’t know how it all got to this. How the perfect job and perfect employer and perfect everything suddenly changed into a get-away-while-you-can situation! So many dreams we all shared! The Happy Familly of A.K.! WHATEVER!!!
At least I met some wonderful people that I will keep in touch with, hopefully! What is weird is that most of us - the ones leaving - found a new job somehow related to the IT&C field. Strange coincidence!
Last night, in K.’s car, discussing about this end line. He asked if I was going to cry. And I answered I would, maybe Friday night, when I’d be at my mom’s…Yeah, I probably will! But not for long, as I have more important things to worry about. Like my new job, or getting better at Spanish and doing a serious French revision, which would help as well to get better results.
This year I really need to focus on school as well, to get involved in as many projects as possible to wipe out the feeling of complete waste of time that I have when looking back on the year I spent here. I know I actually did learn a lot and did meet interesting people, but still feel it was not worth screwing my final exams at the University, nor delaying them as I did.
Speaking of new projects, a friend of mine – movie director to be – asked me if I was interested in writing movie scripts. Of course I said yes. And I am going to try it, just for fun. Besides, it would really not hurt my career as a writer (if that is ever going to happen). So he sent me a script that I’ll look at and try to write an even better one! So wish me luck on this as well…
About how I feel lately, I found this Sonique song that says it way better than me: You are the sun You are the breeze You’re the only one I want to please
You are the one You are for me You are the only one I want to please
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you've done your best, with all good intentions, but they weren't enough and it's time to move on unfortunately... i've been there, done that too and can feel the disappointment... look ahead, and learn from the past and you'll be allright... keep well